Creativity.

 When I started painting, it was more for fun and a new thing to do. I had so much creative energy to give to this new hobby! And I did it with a friend, which helped a lot. I became confident pretty fast after watching YouTube videos for months and months. I felt I had some grasp over the medium I chose. Later, it became an outlet for my healing, a tool to channel my focus and emotions so they wouldn't manifest in anxiety or depression. However, I have never suffered from anxiety, but that is because I have a solid and grounding energy, like an oak tree. Stress does not fit my chart. But depression could and would, and it is a constant balancing game and hard work not to get into the dark cloud. 

While painting and having fun, I discovered what makes me happy: being bold and expressive. And I found that the product of my happiness also made others happy. But of course, I think me posting artwork all the time could bother others, but I put that thought away asap, so it doesn't bother me. 

I never painted from the need to sell work. My work would probably be much more mainstream if that were my goal. I am not mainstream and never will be.